Why?

Hey :) Welcome to my blog. Whether you were looking for me or just stumbled across this by accident (probably more likely), thank you for coming.

Okay, it's the first post, so I'm probably meant to do some sort of introduction as to what the point of this blog is. I might just do that.
Well, this is a general thoughts blog. It's not a news blog or anything like that. Just somewhere I can post my musings about life and culture and the world. One day I may be posting about romance and relationships, the next about the media or celebrities. Nothing is going to be fixed here. I may yo-yo between happy and depressing subjects (don't say you weren't warned!).
I'm starting this because I have a lot of thoughts floating around my head looking for a way out and this is the only way I can think of doing that with a certain amount of anonymity (don't worry, I'm going to post anything particularly controversial, I'm just a bit of a shy person). This blog isn't quite a place for me to vent but it's similar.

Well, that's the basics about the blog, so now about me.
I'm not going to say heaps about myself for now as it's early days, and it's fun to keep some secrets after all. But I'll say a few things.
First: I want to be an author. I love writing and reading. It's the only thing I can think of that I'm certain I'll never get tired of doing. There are plenty of other things that I like and am good at, but I don't think I'd be able to spend my whole life doing them.
Honestly, when I'm writing is the only time I truly feel like myself.
I have another blog about my life as a writer, but sadly it seems to have ground to a halt at the moment - I'll have to do something about that soon. And then I have my book review and poetry blog, which I'm also getting a bit behind on (gah! I'm awful!).

Okay, fact number two: The direction my life seems to be taking at the moment has nothing to do with writing.
Hmm, a bit of a conundrum really. Well, I said I liked secrets and my dream of writing is one of them. It's rather a big secret, isn't it? I think I may have hinted at it to a few people - often saying it was something I toyed with when I was younger - and I don't exactly hide the fact that I enjoy it, but I've never been very open with the fact that I want to take it beyond a hobby.
I'm actually completely bl**dy terrified about what'll happen if I start telling people.
I am enjoying the life I'm living at the moment - don't get me wrong - but I don't feel it's entirely 'me'. I know I should probably just take a leap of faith and just be honest about it, but I don't think I'm ready for that yet. Plus, writing isn't likely to make me much of a living.

And finally: I am an INFJ personality type. Look that up and it'll tell you a certain amount about me. Not everything is exactly the same but it fits me pretty well.

And I think that's enough for a first post.
Hope some of you stick around to read.
W-O xxx